Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart
and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person,
no different from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day,
like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like
'maybe we should be just friends'
turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.
- Neil Gaiman

so true



have not been blogging for a long time, guess i dun have to..
nobody read it anyway.


i'm like kind of happy with things right now, at the same time, feeling Lost and lonely.
i dunno what to do with life now,
i cant concentrate,
too little time for almost anything.


i need some motivation.

i <3 you so-

Yea so it's long week,
school is SUPER SUPER sian,
lesson was fun but,
it's the people problem
it's making me hard , harder to stay in school...


so i went phuture to celebrate bears birthday..
never really wanted to go, as i think it's a waste of money to club
i rather go conspiracy ..
yea so i make my way down to meet Wen aka Clark..
LMAO
we met awhile and then head to cine first, to chill
the reason to go down for me is to see her HAHASs.
so yea... met her for awhile only..
then she had to go, how sad...

met up with the others and then cab to zouk..
it's damn pack dunno wad event thingy..
I SAW Dharni !! i still prefer his old beat box style..
so we dance and enjoyed ourselves,
wads done there shall remain there ..
so partyed till the morning and cab home,..



met kaihong the following day..
that tattoo kia tattooed his palm..
COOL!!
meet with wen and alvin too..
chill had dinner, BOOZE and smoke.. and HOME
chatted on msn with her..
got moody.


anyway i just reach home. did a number of things today.
meet up with wen , ivan, tina , YOrku?? and ben..
had dinner and then enjoyed MY FIRST CIGAR!!
POWERRRR lol...
then i cab down with wen to my fathers year end dinner for cny..
his like totally drunk, then i gave him a stick of CIGAR.. he tot wen buy for him 1..
LMAO.. ok so i sat a drunken driver's car home... my dad...
now just waiting for him to finihs his shower, and it's my turn..
o yea, MUMMY JUST GAVE ME 450DOLLAR !!! MUHAHASss.
i'm rich !! i'm RICH...


she's leaving town...
for a week..
damn it, i'm gonna miss her like fuck.


lables- smoking a cigar in my room

i <3 you so-

the desperate need for her physically


&


the constant need to get a way from her mentally.

i <3 you so-

Windless days
wads so happening recently
why is everyone fallin out of love?
be myself, dear dexter, wen, wl ...
goash
MANY many and it's really alot unwanted events
really happened
wads tat thing tat u call love?
Relationship, oH fuck it
it's like another burden yea?
it make a BIGBIG hole in my pocket,
make me so miserable,
breaks through my soul
always put me in this fuck up situation
spoil the time i have with my dear friends
Whom are always there for me , whn i actually needed u
thanks fellow comrades for always being there, helping one another
in their most miserable moment.
Thank you(relationship) for setting this whole play,

ok craps i dun even noe wad i'm blogging abt..
blah blah blah
i noe i can do it w/o you(relationship)
like wad tat witch told me,
i finally realize it's really true,
r/s = burden
why not make myself available to wadever
i want,
i noe i sound selfish,but again
whose not?

we are animals by nature, soaring for self pleasure
why make ourselves pain all over again and again
so this year resolution:
never to get hurt again
never to make myself cheap ever
build up the bonds with the friends who are really true
make ample time for my family
stay healthy
maybe quit smoking( yea sae only)
score high for wadever i'm doing
turn gay with yvain(just kidding)
i still love triangles(if u noe wad i mean)
not forgetting getting more and more labels with wen
think of ways to earn more money
forget her totally.

i dunno why but i just feel like quitting school
and start learning and help my dad
cuz tats the real way which i can earn money
and do wad i want



i'm so fallin out of love.

i <3 you so-

BAD CLUBing day it was yesterday,
went to PLAY last nite, wit huiyun, joshua, yvain,yvain's bf , NY, ROn and tina.
got day and que up early, then when chk in time,
i was taking out my ic, then i realize i only got my buspass,
so i tot, it's okay, till the door bitch chk,
kns cant use buspass anymore -_-
nb, only i stuck outside. NB
yvain and guys ask me to cab home and take, THEN cab back. MAdness
but as a wavy libra and cant make my own choice , got psyco and then cab back,
hit the high way and, FUCK it's jam
reach home, and nb 25dollar le, really didt wan go back liao,
but later poor yvain kp me...
so took my ic then cab back again,
cb reach there 40 buck ...
luckly MR vain pay 20 for me, but still will return him someday,
then i miss the free entry fee, NB again...
pay 15 dollar mroe to get in, means the whole entry fee for me tonite is 55dollar, NB.
totally no mood to club le, haiz..'
got in with a long face, was hungry , but no money, then joshua treat me eat. LOVE JOSHUA.
LOLS after tat, he also no money le... LMAO
actually we all have cards lar, but the whole holiday, really spend too much le.
ok so we club and ppl start leaving , CUZ THE WHOLE DANCE FLOOR DAMN PACK WITH GAYS PLUS ITS THE FIRST TIME THE "BO" STINK SO MUCH..
TOTALLY RUIN THE FUCKING NITE,
NEVER AM I GOING GO SAT AGAIN, DUN PSYCO ME...
haiz, so with a bad mood, i sat and chill with the drinks,
was really not in the mood, but dear vain persuded again,
i'm just too wavy, hit the floor again, it's still very pack, haiz
the songs sucks alot too on g nite..
got out play and chilled,
huiyun gtg, and we all MOODLESS LE..
came out with the 5 factors tat affect clubing
- MONEY
- PLACE(ambience)
- SONGS
-COMRADES
-THE PPL THERE


NB , dun wan sae le, sae le heart pain,

finished play, went maxwell and chill,
thne walk to raffles and trained home..


NO MORE PLAY!

i <3 you so-

Lets101 - free online dating

I NID MONEY!!!
Work work work..
labels!
care!
Concern!
OF CUZ ATTENTION
and await the new term,

the new girl next door

i <3 you so-

ARRR FUCK i wrote so long and , i press the red cross button on accident
NB
ok so in short

WORK > HOME> WL AND BEAR AND QING wen> Balcony> evelyn> conspiracy> met Nicolette > drink drunk TALK COCK SING SONG> HOME > SLEEP> TEMPLE> HOME> CUT HAIR> YVAIN JOSHUA> Sizzler > SLACK> HOME > NOw gonna dota,
just imagine how much i typed, NB



-waiting for nico to finish her movie.

i <3 you so-

Was killed on november 0908
bye



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